Hazy days

7th of February 2009 is now known as Black Saturday. So many people have died from the bush fires and it's just such a waste of life. What makes me even angrier is the fact there are suspected arsonists! It's pretty much mass murder. But that's another story for another day.

What has been bugging me the past few days is the fact that people need a bush fire to happen before they start being generous. Why do you have to wait for people to die to stir some sense of generosity in yourself? I'm not condemning the millions of dollars that have been donated so far. I mean, it's all good. I love seeing how everyone's so willing to give and help out and the unity that this whole nation is showing. But why can't people be generous all the time? I mean, once the whole bush fire hype has died down, then what? Does it end there? There are so many people around the world who need this kind of generosity. Actually, you don't even have to look that far. Just go to the city and you'll see people who need help.

I can't say that I'm the most generous person in the world. But I do remember a couple of months ago, while I was doing a placement in Telstra, I used to walk past homeless people everyday at the station. I'd sometimes stop to give them money or any food I could find in my bag. I think what broke my heart was the fact that everyone was looking away, pretending as if he/she wasn't even there. I can't imagine how lonely it must feel being in a street side full of people, only to have them ignore you.

But yeah, that's just how I feel about generosity. It's a bit hard for me to get my head around it. Sometimes I feel so small. How do you know how much that little bit you're doing is making a change?

Lord of the Rings

I've officially watched all 3 Lord of the Rings extended version DVDs. It's the best series EVER. I would so watch it all over again. It's pretty funny watching the guys squirm in their seats over the "gay" scenes. The scenes aren't even gay, they're all friends! They have to fight to save the world, and all they have is each other. Hehe, I'm such a nerd.

Ok, I have two more weeks of placements, and I can't wait! I'm pretty much just waiting for all of this to end. Yay!

And I have the KPMG song stuck in my head.

I've never known better

I've spent a good 5 days away from TV/internet/Ipod/DS. It was awesome. I have to say I feel like I have this massive burden lifted from my shoulders, and I also feel less obsessive about checking my email/Facebook/weather. I don't feel like I've missed much either.

Anyway, I've had a long week. Chinese New Year, Australia Day, taking a taxi to the client, Oxygen barbeque at Jells in 40 degree weather, a string of 40 degree days (finally cooling down this weekend to the early 30s), KPMG trivia night (my team won! I get gold class movie tickets apparently!), first Epic Central of the year, Jono and Jas' farewell drinks (very spontaneous! Decided to go in less than 5 minutes, drove to the city, had a mocktail and drove back, all within 3 hours. Arrived home at 2am), 1000 steps AGAIN, Sam and Steph's engagement party and finally, Lord of the Rings extended version.

This is all just the beginning. I'm finding it hard to believe that the year is going to get any better. I'm finding it hard to keep up with the hype. I'm feeling the pressure of my final year starting to build up. Life seems to be going so fast I just can't keep up. I really just want time to stop so I can catch my breath and regain my momentum.