Sorry & Thank you

I can't change who I am. I can't change who I turned out to be. I'm really sorry, but sometimes I wish I wasn't the way I am too. Especially right now. I am very very grateful though, for friends and parents (!!!) who accept me just the way I am (parents because in this day and age, how often do people use their children to achieve what they couldn't?). Ironically, they make me want to be a better person. Because I know that even if I didn't try they'd still love me, and even if I fail, they don't care. So it doesn't hurt to try when you have friends like that. But yes, it bugs me when I really can't change who I am. I can't change how I feel about certain things. More like, I don't know how to.

:(

I'm so good at procrastinating that I think one day, it's going to cost me.

Shouldn't need anyone

Anberlin was awesome! I was standing in the second row, and I could see them in front of me the whole time they were playing and it was so good! They sound even better live!! AhhhhhhHHhhhHHHH :)

Okay, so now back to reality.

Reality: No job offer from KPMG. Actually, no call from KPMG telling me that I didn't get an offer. Stupid.

So now all I think about all day is my CV and my cover letters, and the fact that there are so limited audit graduate positions for 2010 because of the recession. It sucks because I just found out that I really want to start off my career with auditing, and I'm the kind of person who'd be willing to be paid less to do something I enjoy. But, argh, the whole thing is just stressing me out. My parents are already telling me to brace for harder times.

I guess I'm just starting to understand that life is unfair. I'm just holding on to the hope that this might be a blessing in disguise. Maybe it'll turn out for the better. Hopefully.